Sunday, January 5, 2020

Brand Yourself



Projects like these have always seemed very cheesy and childish to me, but as I grow older, I realize the importance more and more of them.  Maybe I lacked the maturity or commitment, but know it makes me understand the importance of self-reflection and knowing who you are.  Knowing your goals, strengths, and weaknesses are keys to getting to where you want to go and being who you want to be.  After some deep thought I began the personal strengths / weaknesses and then after some discussion with a few friends and family I created the next few paragraphs.  I hope this reflection that can help me figure out where I stand at this point in my life and use it to learn the next steps needed in my life and motivate myself for the future.

Personal Strengths

I begin this project with self-reflection of what I believe I am strongest at.  A strong trait that I have carried throughout my life is the ability to motivate myself towards going all out in something I love doing.  When I feel passionate, I become obsessed with being the best I can be and achieving my goals.  My most time-consuming activity has always been volleyball and it is something I love doing.  I first started playing when 15 years old and really had no idea it would take me all the way to State Playoffs in high school and a very talented club team here at U of I.  I was able to break a school record at my position, something I had been striving to do since I was a freshman in high school.  It is during these moments where I learned the true power of believing in yourself and going all out.  This is where I discovered the idea that hard work pays off, a lesson that will stick with me throughout my professional career and personal life for the rest of my life.  Also, I believe this thought me how to be mentally tough because to succeed in any sport at a high level you need to be disciplined and have a strong mindset.
Another positive characteristic I think I have is that I like to take on challenges and am not afraid to try.  This may be classified as stupidity by some, but I have high expectations of myself and therefore will challenge myself to be the best I can be and therefore, partake in things where I am in far over my head.  This will tie into a weakness of mine later, but I feel it is important to mention it here in my strengths because I value it.  I will go through a few examples that mainly pertain to my academic life.  Something positive that I am proud of is getting into my major of Econometrics and taking on a computer science minor, which many people told me I would fail (haven’t yet, fingers crossed).  Next, when I first got on campus, I tried to join a top business fraternity.  I was one of two people to show up in shorts and was quite embarrassed.  Obviously, I did not get a second-round interview.  A last one to quickly touch on the many, I set my sights on transferring into the College of Business, which I later learned I needed a 4.0 for and did not come close to meeting the requirements.  While all of these were catastrophic failures, I feel that they were necessary experiences that I will carry with me all throughout life.  Nobody is perfect and we all make mistakes, so I’m glad that I at give myself a chance at succeeding.  As they say, shoot for the stars and if you miss you’ll land on the moon.

Personal Weaknesses

            Hopefully, none of these weaknesses come back to hurt me at some point in my life, but here we go.  The first I would like to start with is a that I can be undisciplined on certain aspects of my life.  I know myself well enough to know that I will give a much lesser, and sometimes even poor effort, on things I do not care for and should.  I guess we can frame this as stubbornness and a lack of discipline.  For example, I have never been very into school and have failed to realize the importance of a professional career up until about 2 years ago.  My hardest subject has always been writing.  When I try and put the focus and effort into my pieces, I can actually enjoy my writing and come off as somewhat intelligent.  I often get frustrated when I cannot write as well or articulate myself at the highest level even though I expect such things and know that I am capable of. 
Touching back on the goals setting I mentioned earlier, I think I need to have more realistic goals that I can focus on day to day.  This is because up until 2 years ago I had absolutely 0 idea of what how to get potential jobs I would be interested in or a future career path I could narrow myself down to.  All I said was finance, but I really didn’t know what I wanted at the time.  During college visits I didn’t put much effort into my choice or do any research on clubs / programs / or really anything above the basic level.  As I move forward in life, I feel this is quite possibly my biggest obstacle I face, especially now moving into the job market.  I started my college career mainly focused on a social life and have since had to do a complete 180 towards turning myself into a valued professional.  I have to make myself as aware I can and put in the work by trying new clubs, researching about job positioning, and having serious conversations with myself about where I want to be and how I can get there.  I know that this can be painfully slow for me, but it is literally my future, so I need to take my time and if I get stuck just to work a bit harder and get through it. 
            A second weakness, which is a two-parter is I can be very cocky of somethings and also very afraid of others.  The more I grow older and experience things the more I realize that I have been far too cocky about life itself and had a bad perspective and attitude.  I always thought that I
I knew what I was doing and that I shouldn’t join clubs or anything and I would be just fine playing volleyball.  As it turns out it is not and before College, I did a work tour which I really liked and didn’t have the maturity to admit it at the time. I think these can be fixed with by trying to be a better well-rounded individual and having mental toughness, like I used in volleyball.  I read through the example given and one very interesting take away I had was he mentioned how he came into college expecting to talk with faculty as vessels to help excel his career and not be afraid to approach them and other students.  This is something I feel that I fear and shy away from.  I feel very uncomfortable and lack confidence n certain adamic situations even though I know I should feel more comfortable and this is something I need to work on and improve for the future.



Strengths

            The first strength that many told me was that I was able to be very social and kind.  This is most likely a little biased because it came from those who I’m around all the time, but nonetheless, is a positive.  This surprised me a bit because I often times feel that I can be very anxious around people and I do get nervous.  As I mentioned in my weaknesses I am often afraid to talk to people who are superior to me, so I feel I can take this into the future.  Another strength I got, was that I can be very motivated and consistent.  Again, I feel this is biased because my friends may not know how my entire academic career has gone, so this may be a polling error.  I do feel that this could be somewhat true because I did motivate myself enough to get into a decent major and do very well in volleyball.

Weaknesses

             The first weakness that does not surprise me is that I can sometimes lack discipline.  I think this stems from a lack of motivation or awareness that I didn't previously possess, and now have about my career and overall personal life.  As mentioned earlier because this was face to face I probably didn't get the most honest answers, but I do trust those I questioned enough to believe they would tell the truth.  Another weakness mentioned was a lack of assertiveness or being social in certain situations.  As I wrote earlier, I struggle to be the same outgoing and involved person I am when I feel uncomfortable and, as I predicted, it shows.  This is something I will try to work my best on in the future, as I feel it is an invaluable skill to develop for any career path and in life.




My feature benefit

            This may not have been the most uplifting or inspiring thing you’ve ever read, but I know that whatever I find myself doing I will be busting my ass to be as great as I can.  Will I make some errors along the way and go through some struggles?  Most likely, seems like that is just life, but I’m working on and I love a good challenge.  From where I started in my career and personal life to where I am now makes me believe I can do great things. All I see is shocking growth in my life and I can only see myself growing more and more, and it’s exciting.